More Procrastination

Today my employer gave me my private health insurance form.
He mentioned that it was not compulsary. I admitted to being in two minds and he told a story about his health that should have made me keen go private.
For reasons I hope he knows nothing of, his story did not resolve my indecision.

I can play the socialist and refuse private health care, hopefully avoiding the medical.
A future medical may be compulsary and part of my employment conditions. I don't know.

I should deal with the facts as I know them and ignore the what if's.

Fact.
Avoiding the medical is a relief and I feel as if I've won a watch.
I'm kidding myself here as no impending medical dissolves the impetuous needed to do Detox 5.
I need to get clean. Full stop.
Sometimes I think that I'm pinning my future hopes on the magic "get clean" bullet.
If I was clean all would be well.
The truth is that getting clean is the first step on a long and winding road.
A road full of uncomfortable growing up type emotional obstacles.

That was a long fact.